One evening in a taxi and a mall

Driver: sala aaj din hi kharab nikla pure din mein char bar gaadi kharab ho gayi subha se kuch nahin khaya aur abhi udhar tyre banwa kar aa raha hoon aap jo kiraya denge usse daru pee kar so jaoonga
One of us: khali pet daru pioge to mar jaoge
Driver: sahab waise bhi sarkar jinda nahin chodegi achcha he daru se hi mar jaaonga

This was a short conversation with a taxi driver on our last trip to kolkata the way of delivery was so tragic that it predesposed me to think about the incident deeply on my way back to kgp.The centre of my contention were two extreme situations i faced just in a short span of half an hour. Actually at the time of above conversation we were returning from ionox( the biggest and most exavagant mall of kolkata). while our outing at the mall i was fascinatedby the opulence and consumerism which such a malls are known for..... Standard of people shoping there (Especially boy friends of beautiful babes shoping there) and price tag on the products were huge enough to give me an inferiority complex. We were looking complete fool there like a bunch of monkeys in a fairy land. But also there grew a longing to become big and rich in life so that i can also enjoy all the comforts being offered there. Such was the frustration that we left the mall in ten minutes with a confidence that someday we will also be able to afford such a mall as our regular shoping venue.
We boarded a taxi to esplened and did our shoping and we were on our way back to howrah station when the above said conversation happened. The pain and emotions in the voice of that taxi driver forced my thought away from the memory of the ionox and the frustration i faced there. Here i was, contemplating the condition of such a taxi driver and crores of poor people in the country like him It seemed that my life was a luxury compared to there's.This was the second extreme of the country india... An extreme which is far more real then the loftiness of that shoping mall.......An extreme that is seldom talked of when refering india..........An extreme which shows that what the miserable state indians are in..........An extreme which raises a question can india afford such a consumerism and opulence as was there in that mall......

I don't know weather people shoping there were happy or not but it was for sure that this driver was in a very pathetic condition, and if i can envy a person shoping in a mall i should be empathic with this driver too. That fateful night i questioned myself again and again
And i found i was .......
But there was no frustration but sympathy for the poor
no determination to do something for him but only a hollow sympathy
& i gave him the money (whick he may have dranked off) and forgot the whole episode.

There in the train when i contemplated the whole episode It gave me a feeling of guilt together with a hatred against my shelfish attitude. Isn't such a attitude of indians responsible for a third of our population below poverty line.In america an increase of 2% unemplyment is enough to defeat a president in his second term but in india we are dreaming to become a economic power in the world just because a hand full of western jobs are being outsorced in the country. We are happy with our current telecom boom when thousands of indian village don't have a single phone. We are happy to see malls full of lights and grandiuer when a student from rural india does n't have enough power suply to light a bulb and prepare for his examinations.
This two situations were not incidental but were the reality of the country india .....................
A bitter reality which is beimg faced by each and every one of us every evening.........................
But we find our helpless to do anything other than sympathising..........................
I don't know weather there will be a change in my attitude or not but untill such an attitude will prevail in all of us, india will be evaded of realising the dreams it has dreamed off.

Mein Aisa Kyon Hoon

Sometimes i think why am i as i am
The question arises mostly out of my frustration with my poor performance or sometimes is
inantiated by any of my good friends, who never leave a chance to proove that they are the severest critics this universe has ever witnessed. But is this question a valid one and if it is so can it be answered appropriately.
As i believe (but i never follow) every one has got his own qualities and limitations. No one is being behested with all the talent in all the fields.......the converse is also true no one in this world is without a talent. It is mandatory for him to be good in something or the other only difference is that weather he knows about his talents or not. Even being aware of your talent is not enough you should try to harness your best by the talent you possess instead of whining over the qualities you do not have.
Its quite ironic that eventhough i know the answer then too i am confronted by the same question every know or then. This tendency of mine can be attributed to my being a human
and every human has a tendency of dissatisfaction out of himself.
But it can also be said that this tendency is there because i am not enjoying the stuff i am made to do now a days.....Its again depressing you tried hard to achieve something and after achieving that you find that it is not the thing you were craving for.

But at the end of the day i am what i am and nobody can change that and notwithstanding certain down moments i love to be myself and this is the feeling which should always exist after all if you yourself do not like youself how can you expect others to do so. somebody has rightly said Be Yourself because a orignal is worth more than a copy.

A Tantrum to rue off

Sometimes u try a lot but u fail.
Sometimes u think u are the best but u soon realize ur not.
Sometimes u creeve for a thing but u manage to loose it.
Sometimes u want to impress someone but u fail to do so.
Sometimes u do a resolution but later fail to comply by it.
Sometimes u want someone to love u but eventually find he hates u.
Sometimes u want to give someone all happiness u can but u manage to sadden him.
This are the times u think u r a perfect looser but u should know at all this moments
that after all u r a humanbeings.

This is the perfect kind a life a human should have.
He should learn from his failuress.
He should learn from his loses.
He should learn from his heart breaks.
He should learn from his outrages.
He should learn from his breakups.
He should learn from his misendeavours.
after all this are the incidents that makes this life a book to learn from.

Where there is a failure there is a chance of success too.
Where there is a heartbreak there is a chance to make up too.
where there is a breakup there is a chance of an affair too.
Where there is a imperfection there is chance of a perfection too.
Whereever there is a longing there is a chance of satisfaction too.
after all this is how a human being learns.

(IS any body reading i am sorry for such a bogus poem actually i am not an articulate writer, infact this is the
first poem i have ever written that too in such a frantic state i am so i hope u will not mind after all its how life goes)