Waiting for the moment of truth

Life is unbelievably funny. Full of uncertainty..Full of ups and downs. Just a quarter back I thought I have lost it in me...I am a gone case..a laggard in the rat race outside..But the most common proverb floating around came out to be true.. " Tough times never last but tougher people do".

And what a turn around..Today I am confused on whether to have a laddo or a rasgulla. I am sure this time will also not stay for ever. And whatever decision I take will have a prolong and lasting effect on my career.

I do not remember when I first heard of the word IIT. But It was the sheer determination of a 16 year young hardworking boy which got him through one of the toughest exams against all the odds. Such was his confindence that all through his preparation he never ever thought of not clearing the exam. It was his naiveness which convinced him that only harwork is key to success. And how hard he worked is something to record.

It was a big moment..the day he got his result...He got through but was still too disappointed. he was not paid his due...Perhaps destiny was too hard for him....He was deeply heart broken..But somehow he believed that someday he will get his due....Luck will reverse some day and will even out the unfairness he received..

From there on he became far more practical and opportunistic. His hardworking nature was replaced by smartness. He moved to a new world..A world filled with a diverse set of individuals..some very harworking, some very intelligent and others with a bit of both. Intermingling with this group he realized perhaps he was paid sufficiently for his harwork. Perhaps he was not that good in other aspect which limited his achievements... Nevertheless he was to happy to be given a chance to be a part of such a bright group and always tried to learn from each of them....At the end of his stay at this wonderful place he came out a lot more confident.

Alas He came out to the real world and joined a rat race. The race to proove himself..A race to get ahead or atleast remain at par to the briliant folks he met previously. He had a good start and loved his life and enjoyed it to fullst. But soon he realized that this is not something he has always wanted.. this is not something he has worked so hard for. He realized he had to move out of this, as fast as possible. He new an exit. An exit which will take him to a new place with another set of brilliant people and will open a new horizon of opportunities for him. He worked hard..not as hard as he did in the first place...but far more balanced and smartly. He cleared the first hurdle although not that convincingly but he was sure that he will come out of the next stage with flying colours. He again saw the same light he used to saw in distant past and worked even harder this time.

Today the same guy is at another fork way of his life. This time again it is the same destiny deciding his fate. He is hoping that this time will be different.. he will be given his long due....Perhaps this will evenout his previous disappointments and will give him the same confidence he possesed at the beginning of this story....

Moment of truth is just round the corner....Let the heavens play its part.