What if i may have been there

What a scene it may have been????????
What might i have done ?????
Weather i might have survived or lost in the lap of the mighty ocean??????
What might i have expected others to treat me like in case i may have escaped death????

This were the obvious questions which came to my mind when i imagined myself in the place of a tsunami victim. Long since i came to mybeing, i have fanatised myself enjoying myself in a beach house. Living with the waves & enjoying the beauty of sunset & sunrise in the sea were other benefits which had always made me envy of all the people living by the sea. But recent tsunami accident had about turned my perception. Why only me rather i should say it has shuddered whole world & i think that this may be one of the worst or who knows may be the worst accident in my entire life time.Its very ironic how the very same people who had always derived there livelyhood from the ocean were drowned to death by their own nurturer. How can nature be so cruel. How can god be so careless ( in case he is there).

But it's how the life goes where there are troubles there are escapades too but at this moment of grief it is heartning to see the whole world promising a grand relief. Every one is giving what he can magnimasly But what percent of the grand promises will be respected no one know but it is for sure that how grand relifit may be it can't relieve every one of his grief....... The echo of the incident will be heard for a long long time.......... But at this moment we should do what our beat we can so that when remembering the accident we can say that we have done what best we may had.

Half The Battle Won Other Half Yet To Win

Looking in retrospect just a few years before.......to me being an iitian was a dream to pursue It was the utimate passion fueling the desire to work hard......... to proove yourself ...........to show the world you deserve it ........... Time elapsed and dreams were fulfilled but desires remained back. The starving hungry desires with nothing to fuel them.
It was the end of another semester at iit kharagpur......I were quiet happy not because i did well in the exams but because it marked the end of one of the most horrible semester in my kgp life.Here i was enjoying the peace & planning my winter break, then i came to read the status message of one of my fellow mate which read as "Half The Battle Won" this line was there to say that i had completed half of my stay in kgp but i was not amused.Rather i was exasperated to guess the most appropriate completion of the above mentioned comment which read as Other Half Yet To Win...............What was the cause of this exasperation i don't know myself......Was it the mere fact that i have yet half of my stay due at this place...... what did that mean......... I have always liked the place kgp .......but why i don't want to stay here more .......... why i don't .......Do anybody has an answer to it.... may be the answer lies in the state of the same desire which is starving due to lack of fuel to consume.............. It is the same desire to proove my self............to show the world that i deserve much more then what i am getting.....................
I sometimes do think that .....Is this the same state that i had contemplated for while giving my best effort to get into this institute.........But then i had never thought of the things which i will have to do here .......i had always fancied the accolades and rewards which would be accompaning me after i will clear the jee. But i had never ever planned my aims and objectives after joining an IIT........ That is the reason why i am aimless and passionless now that is why i don't have something to fuel my desire to work hard this days......This was the conclusion i draw upon after my above mentioned moments of restlesness
I don't know how much furthur this state will remain how much furthur i will wander restless in search of a passion to fuel my desire but i hope to break the zinx soon before there is nothing left to do ..................